People and Experiences…
People: They conceal, they have walls they build things up around them to hide who they truly are. They go to church, they attend groups, they socialize, but do they ever really open up to everyone else? People put up walls to protect them selves from being hurt. They would rather not let everyone know their business. They want privacy and freedom. They are lonely, they are strong, they are socially active. Its a tough battle to get someone to open up to you. To tear down walls. To trust.
In my life, I put my trust and faith into people. We trust people every day. When you drive down the highway, you trust that the person in the other car won’t run into you. For what though. Not because they don’t want to hurt you, but because they don’t want to get hurt. This world is selfish. They are close minded. They don’t open up and put faith in other people. They keep them selves at the center of their own world. They don’t push to make other people the center of theirs.
Now Love is an entirely different story. When love occurs, the entire above two paragraphs tend to get flipped on their axis. Love opens people to new possibilities, its brings people closer, it creates trust. Trust can be built from love. Love can cause people to not run into another person on the highway. Love tears down walls.
But I am not talking about love in this. I am talking about being closed and open to another person.
You affected me. You changed me. You opened me. You made me believe a little again. Life without openess, without caring, with walls would be an interesting place. But I don’t want to live that life. I consider my self affectionate person. An open person. A honest and blunt person. If I don’t like the way something is happening, I speak up, if I love the way something happens, I speak up. I state what I am thinking and don’t hold anything back. I am just that sort of person.
In the two days I had with you, you were open, honest, carefree, caring and didn’t have walls with me.
How do I say this. You made me believe that people can still tear down walls quickly. That people can care for others just as quick as you and I. I think thats why our physical contact felt so much more. So much better. We danced, we held, we lived. For those two days I was happy. You allowed me to see another person that was willing to just put faith into another. To just believe. To be entirely open and honest. Its hard to find that type of person in the world. Its hard for someone like me to find another person that was so honest and blunt and just plain speak with another. Thats why I don’t want to let go. Don’t want to stop.
Call it infatuation, call it friends, call it lovers, call it what ever you want. Im gonna call it “Us”.
“When you surround yourself with people who are happy, driven and well balanced, you too are more likely to become happy, driven and well balanced.”
That quote probably makes the most sense to me. You are just like me. I enjoyed you so much. I still wish to enjoy you mentally.
I don’t want to lose you. Maybe I am being selfish, but I am also being open and blunt about it. But I found someone like me….
